heartbreak

how do you tell a mom, whose world revolves around her little boy, that she isn't going to be able to hold him for the next three months?

i went in for a check-up today to be sure my progesterone injections were working. i have prayed and prayed and prayed and prayed some more that these injections will do the trick to avoid any further complications. well, it seems that God has a little bit of a different plan than i was hoping for. the injections are not working and my complications are worsening quickly, and i have now been put on bedrest at 26 weeks, will have to be hooked up to monitors to monitor my contractions, and be given meds to try to stop the contractions intravenously through the leg! this is what i was so afraid of. i am allowed bathroom and showering priviledges, that's it. i tried explaining to my doctor that bedrest simply couldnt be an option and she was quick to tell me that it was my only option or i could very likely end up in the hospital with a preemie, suffering from cerebral palsy or blindness. im scared, terrified, helpless, but hopeful. this broke my heart to hear that, but when she told me that i couldn't hold my little boy for the rest of my pregnancy, my eyes instantly filled with tears and im pretty sure they haven't stopped since. never in a million years did i think something like this would happen to me. what makes this whole situation even worse....in two weeks, my husband leaves for korea for 3 months!!! i have already been having such terrible anxiety thinking about him leaving bc i worry he wont be home for the arrival of miss gracie, but now im anxious in so many more ways. today has easily been one of the worst days, im so emotionally exhausted, yet cant sleep. im sick of this stupid bed already and it hasn't even been a full day. how do i do this for three months? how do i keep my sanity? what will i do once travis leaves? how do i not love on my little angel for 3 months? i have so many questions and not a single answer! i have faith that God knows what he is doing and that it will all work out and He can do immeasurable things. for now that is my only answer.